armageddon

"And when all the worlds collide,
all they know is to divide,
and it’s easy if they're faceless,
to hate the other side.
And the others caught between,
are the only ones to bleed,
and the ones they leave behind,
can only sit and cry."




E.

some girls dream their whole life to be called 'beautiful'

i guess that makes me lucky, right?

au the contraire: my self confidence has hit an all time low and now, beautiful means nothing.

why do i do this to myself?


E.

no, I do understand.

I just don't like it.


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sometimes, I wish I could disappear, just so I could see who would miss me.

"who are you to judge the life I live?

I am not perfect, and I don't have to be.

so, before you start pointing your fingers,

make sure your hands are clean first."

-Bob Marley


E.

when the doors close, and the others don't open.

don't worry, i know it was you.

and so does everyone else.

E.

zig zags and criss crosses

can't you see? she's an emotional basket case who can't get over herself and certainly can't learn from her stupid mistakes.

or maybe she's just fishing for compliments?

now just to clarify, its not that you do talk to her, that's just ridiculous, but it's how you talk to her. i'm all for the comfort of friends--that's what friends do, but even comfort draws a line. sometimes, there's only so much a friend can do, and the rest is up to them (especially when it's every fucking day of the week).

and you say i don't understand? really? i understand perfectly well. All i have to do is look at us and your past.

you can't do it for her, but you're the only one who can tell her. 

and as a good friend of mine once put it: the damsel can't be saved if she seeks distress.


E.

a face to call home

I'm an architect
Of days that haven't happened yet
I can't believe a month is all it's been
You know my paper heart
The one I filled with pencil marks
I think I might've gone and inked you in

Little by little, inch by inch
We built a yard with a garden in the middle of it
It ain't much but it's a start
You got me swaying right along to the song in your heart
And a face to call home
A face to call home
You got a face to call home

So good you didn't see
The nervous wreck I used to be
You'd never know a girl could feel so small
And you never look at me
Like I'm a liability
I bet you think I've never been at all

Little by little, inch by inch
We built a yard with a garden in the middle of it
And it ain't much, but it's a start
You got me swaying right along to the song in your heart

And a face to call home
A face to call home
You got a face to call home

A face to call home
A face to call home
You got a face to call home

Maybe I could stay a while,
Maybe I could stay a while,
Maybe I could stay a while,
I'm talkin' like all of the time

A face to call home.

it takes a fool to love you, and i'm just the fool for you.

the best thing about us, is that we can fight like animals and yet at the end of it all, we still love each other more than ever.

its strange, because if it were anyone else, i'd still be seething through my teeth, pondering what actions i should eventually take to make them feel more hurt than i was--this can go on for days.

but you?

i might still be seething through my teeth, but i still love you, and its the time we spend away from each other while we calm ourselves down that kills me the most. it almost forces me to forgive you, because it's not that i can't stand being angry at you, its that i can't stand you being angry at me.

i always have to be near you, touch you, see you.

is that an obsession?

i don't know anymore, but as long as you're happy, i'm happy too.

E.

some believe in love at first sight, but all i believe it is, is lust.

real love takes time.
so why does 8 months feel like 8 years?


E.

All of my light is for you,

and home is anywhere you are too.

E.

look at your own mirror before you start spying on mine.

don't forget that 2 wrongs don't make a right.

 

but lastly? harden the fuck up.

E.

welcome to wherever you are.

childish, I know. but it's all about perception I guess.

you can think what you want, but all I wanted to portray was that simply, this was me not trying.

I mean really, and we all know how good you are at dealing with reality.

but then again, you can't deal with it if you don't live in it.

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i'll surrender my heart and swap it for yours

sometimes, you forgive people simply because you still want them in your life.

I'm gonna pick up the pieces,
and build a lego house.
If things go wrong, we can knock it down.


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who you are

I stare at my reflection in the mirror:
"Why am I doing this to myself?"
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf.
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars.
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are.

E.

tonight is so beautiful.

so why doesn't life feel that way?

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im so tired of the games we play, that you start.

grow up.


E.

it's not always rainbows and butterflies,
it's compromise that moves us along.
my heart is full and my door's always open,
you can come anytime you want.


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