the 10 and the 2 is the loneliest sight

right when i needed you the most, you weren't there. i'm surrounded by people and yet, i've never felt so alone.

and as for you? well, i dislike you. not in that sense, but because you know exactly how to read me. 99.9% of everything you said was true, even though i hate to admit it. i also hate that i don't not care, or rather, that i can't not care.

but i still hate your attitude in all of this, because you don't care.

E.

love me like the world is ending

i don't think i've ever had anyone love me as much as you do.

its because i wear my heart on my sleeve, just the same as you.


E.

you know what annoys me the most? the carelessness in all of this. the 'invincibilty' that you perceive of yourself.

you were once a part of the deepest and darkest corners of the world, of your mind and soul, where nothing was worth the effort of breathing. but whether you realise it or not, you'll soon actually see the consequences of that thinking if you don't stop.

if it were raining, no one would know that i was crying.

i guess you'll never understand the position you've put me in. maybe one day, you'll stop being the unwarranted selfish and arrogant prick that you sometimes are, and you'll see that in fact, the world doesn't revolve around you, that there are others that love you.

you've got to believe it to see it.


E.

what do you do when the one person you love more than anything else in the world doesn't love himself?

'i do it for you'

but it won't work unless you do it for yourself.


E.

He who hesitates is lost.
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A great pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do.
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Success rests not only on ability, but upon commitment, loyalty, and pride.
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Today’s preparation determines tomorrow's achievement.
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Failure will not overcome me so long as my will to succeed is stronger.
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Accept the challenges, so that you may feel the exhilaration of victory.
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That which does not kill me will only make me stronger.
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Being defeated is often a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent.
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I'd rather fail, than live the rest of my life not trying.


E.

and all it took was an apology, a hug that lasted for eternity all sealed with a kiss. it was then that i had reclaimed my rightful place in your arms.


because i'm still learning the art of love,
i'm still trying to not mess up,
so whenever i stumble, let me know.


E.

i step outside my minds eyes for a minute
and i look over me like a doctor looking for disease
for something that could ease the pain
but nothing cures the hurt that you, you bring on by yourself...


what am i afraid of exactly? who knows.
but what i do know is that i've acted selfishly whilst all this time, you've been selfless.

maybe its time i grew up and started to realise that in fact, the past shouldn't matter, especially if its small and insignificant in comparison.

that's why its in the past.

as soon as i said the words, i wanted to take them back. its been less than 24 hours and already i want them back. i'm sorry.

amazingly enough though, you're still fighting for me. why? i'll never know. maybe its time i grew up and put it behind me, because the shadows are beginning to creep into the present, and its beginning to scare me.


E.

people will forget what you did and forget what you said, but you need to remember, they will never forget how you made them feel.


E.

The past is our definition. We may strive, with good reason, to escape it, or to escape what is bad in it, but we will escape it only by adding something better to it.

take responsibility for your past, accept it for what it was and learn from your mistakes, but by no means should you live by it. live for today, dream for tomorrow and you will be a better person for it.


E.