why do we constantly search for a tailored fit in an off the rack world?


E.

all we ever care about is dolphin-free tuna.

but what about tuna-free dolphin?


E.

The world has achieved brilliance…without conscience. Ours is a world of nuclear giants and ethical infants.


E.

just did the maddest sprint across southern cross station from platform 14 to platform 2B, all in less than 1 minute.

usain bolt, eat your heart out.

E.

i wish somehow that you'd never said hello to me, because then it wouldn't be so hard to say goodbye.


E.

painting my nails right now.
it's times like these that i wish i was ambidextrous.


E.

don't ever, not even for one second think that i do it because i have too.

i do it because i want too.

E.

today was fun.

we should do this again melbourne :)

p.s. - i have only just realised what was meant by 'the clocks' :P

E.

When we truly love our pet, it is never lost. It is only after death that the depth of the bond is truly felt and our loved companion becomes more a part of us that we thought possible in life.

tu me manques ma princess.

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Juste quand  je commençais à tu oublier, tu étais là.

je pose la question...pourquoi ne te laissent pas mes pensées?

je veux pas te oublier, mais je ne peux pas m'aider.

E.

"you never know what you've got until you've lost it."

it's only now that i truly understand what it means.

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RIP Jilly

13/12/1994 - 19/11/2010

you were the best dog anyone could have ever asked for. I'll miss you <3

xxxx

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just got an email from Myer.

"congratulations on your new position as a christmas casual'

that's a little out of the blue! i'd given up several weeks ago.

but 2 jobs at the same time? my life just got a little more complicated :S

but i could always use the extra cash $$$

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i guess the saying 'the shit has hit the fan' is pretty much an understatement. i may be exaggerating, but i can't stop worrying about it.

i hit a car today trying to park (more like 'touched' a car). careless i know, but i have photos, and its pretty much just a scratch. apparently it's going to 'buff out'.

well i hope so. anything over $1000 and i have to claim it on insurance....and then my insurance premium goes up, and then my dad is going to kill me :S

why does money have to be the root of all of lifes problems?

i guess its time to start saving some serious bikkies....again.

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so i have over $2000 to save for a return airfare to New York in 2013.

could you make it any harder for me to see you get married? PLUS you're not even having bridesmaids! sigh.

but one thing did make my day.

"you guys can go out on the town after the reception"

party in New York bitchezzz ;)

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so results came through today, totally aced it ;)

but i definitely think i've set the bar too high. 

the pressure is on for the next 2 years.

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Why complicate a friendship with a relationship?

It finally dawned on me this morning that perhaps you feel the need to take this further. Then i realised afterwards that maybe i've been giving you the wrong impression, like i've been leading you on. Why do i always do that? If i were to be completely honest with you, you're perfect and yet it's still not enough.

Why is it now that i can't find the answer that i want?

It seems that the new image for myself that i wanted to create has turned into something that I neither like nor understand. The worst thing though is that i feel as though i can't turn back, as though a part of me actually likes the person i'm becoming. For the first time in my life, i'm lost and i don't know where to go.

I guess this is just another one of lifes hurdles that i have to jump, and i suck at hurdles.

E.

this may sound rather vain and childish, but i'm sick to death of my hair.

E.

It's days like this that make me feel happy. Where all the bullshit that goes on in my life just doesn't exist. Where money doesn't matter, jealousy doesn't exist and deep and meaningful conversations with friends are abundant. Awkwardness has no presence and fun has no boundaries.

but it's too bad though that days like this can't last forever.

E.

if there is one thing in the world that i truly detest, it would be lying.

but sometimes, it's just so worth it.

E.

Everytime we meet i can see the intelligent and bright young person i know is inside you. You have so much to offer, yet you're too blinded by your own vanity to see it.

for the first time, i don't understand.

why do you insist on holding back?


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The swing was always my favourite part of the playground. Maybe it was the thrill and excitement you got from flying through the air, like gravity doesn't exist. The simple childish imagination that maybe if you try hard enough, you could let go without falling.

Or perhaps, its the feeling of being free, the ability to let the wind flow through you hair. You have no control over the resonance of the swinging motion, but you never once feel insecure or helpless. You simply let your body flow with the rhythm.

But like everything good in life, it can't last forever. It's a dream that feels like it lasts for hours but in reality, it only lasted a second and when you wake up, you can't remember it. No matter how hard you try to close your eyes and concentrate, you just can't remember.

I feel as though the world is just one big window and i'm on the inside, looking out. Freedom just isn't a luxury that i have.

It never will be if i stay here.

E.

'wanna catch up?'

'um yeh, whatever'

what the hell is that supposed to mean?

i hate texting. you can never pick a persons tone of voice.

E.

I don't know why i did it. I think perhaps it was my yearning for attention that made me do it.

Maybe you caught me at a moment when i was most vulnerable and somehow managed to press the right buttons. But relationships need both of us and i'm not sure that i'm ready to make that commitment just yet...not with you.

I may regret it now but i know that it's for the best. Somehow, we'll get over it and move on.

Whatever it was, whatever we had, it was a mistake, and i'm truly sorry.

E.

i think i'm a shopaholic.

i spent over $300 today! considering i was only supposed to spen $85 on a hard drive... :S

i need some serious help. i mean, it's not like i need anymore clothes, is it? but clearly, my subconscious begs to differ. I buy one thing, then i need to buy something that goes with it....etcetera etcetera. 

i need to learn some self control!

oh, and btw......i'm on a 5 month holiday bitchezzz ;)

E.

you may not agree with how i feel, but remember...it's what i think that really counts.

E.

seriously? a cafe in the library? do you KNOW how convenient that is?!

but honestly....what happened to the 'no food, no drink' rule?

highlight of my day: getting charged only 40c for a 60c chuppa-chup. win.

E.

again with the whole not talking to me thing...are you trying to avoid me?

i KNOW you know, but you could do the decent thing and tell me that 'it's not like that'.

i'm sick of pretending that something will ever happen.

E.

you thought i didn't care, the way i laughed it off.

Truthfully, it broke my heart.

i wish you hadn't have told me.


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*bikini top falls down after massive wave*

"did you see anything?"

"no"

"then why are you laughing? the entire beach managed to get a good look at them, 3 times!" 
"wasn't it only twice?"
"no, it happened again...you didn't see that one"

lmfao :P


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THANKYOU, infectious agents. you've really made my day. 

perfect fucking timing....

E.

i can't figure you out.

you're like a book that ends with no last page....

E.

sometimes i can never tell whether you're just in a bad mood, or actually pissed at me.

i hate it when you call me stupid, but you're my friend, so i play along. We laugh and make fun of each other. Some of the stuff you say really hurts. But then again, you can always dish it out and never take it. Friendship is a mutal concept. For it to work, both parties must make an equal contribution. But lately, i've found myself doing all the work, and i wonder why i put you as my priority when i'm only your option.

Since i've met you, my life has changed, my life is worth living. There's no denying that i will miss you when it's over, we're so close yet so far away. would you want me to come visit you? i would visit you every day if i could, just so i could look into those beautiful blue eyes of yours and tell myself 'you're my friend, and the world is different when i'm with you.'

i feel jealousy taking a hold of me. i see you with others and my heart sinks, because you're not with me. i'm jealous of you. I'm a selfish person, but i try so hard not to let it control me. Was it something i said or did? Understand that this is me and if you can't handle it, then it breaks my heart to have to say that it was just never meant to be.

but i want it so badly.

E.

One should rather die than be betrayed. There is no deceit in death. It delivers precisely what it has promised. Betrayal, though...betrayal is the willful slaughter of hope.

E.

8 glasses of rose champagne

2 vodka raspberries

3 tequila shots

1 jam donut

1 vodka shot

and pulling out the dance moves surrounded by friends and total strangers.

that my friends, is how you party on a sunday night in geelong ;)

oh, and there might have been a coke in there somewhere....


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"nah i reckon you look hot in a dress"
just a little awkward coming from a friend who i'm pretty sure has a thing for me haha :P

i don't know how i'm supposed to react to all this. I leave school after 12 years of not even getting a 2nd glance from a guy and i start getting all this flattery from them??

i think they must all be on crack....

E.

deep down, i knew you wouldn't be there.

but just between you and me, i died a little inside...


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is it possible to love two people at the same time?

i feel myself drawn to him. his candor, genuity and caring nature.

but is this because i know he's attracted to me? is it that feeling of being loved that seems so appealing? is it because i yearn so much for attention that i feel the need to love him back?

but i wish it were the other i were talking about...


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is my fuck off stare not clear enough or something???

if i give you the fuck off stare as you're about to shove someone's face into a birthday cake, it probably means don't fucking do it!

i bet if i did the exact same thing on your living room carpet, you would get so pissed that you would throw me out and tell me to never come back.

yeh well, i felt like doing the exact same thing to you tonight, bogans...

morals have no place in this world anymore. at this rate, the world might just end in 2012...

E.

well geelong. I hope you're proud of yourself. that is the most pathetic game of football i have ever seen. and to think i was actually going to pay to go see it? pfft...

you see collingwood? this is why everyone hates you so much. 

maybe with the money you win, you can finally afford that long awaited dentist's appointment.....


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Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.

E.

are you playing with me or do you actually think i'm beautiful?

how can i trust you when i don't even know you?

E.

"WHAT?! that's fucking bullshit! typical fucking left wing journalists don't know shit!"

yes, thats exactly the phrase that i woke up to this morning, courtesy of my father. It seems that the elite private schools have made the front page of The Age again for making too much money and receiving too much money from the government. clearly, dad would beg to differ.

in my honest opinion, i have to agree with them (newspaper). Although my school was top of the list (lol!), i don't believe we should be receiving $6m from the government if we're making $10.4m surplus. Just down the road, there are public schools struggling to survive. Morally, its wrong. But then again, greed has always won over and that will never change.

All i have to say is, 'thank GOD i've finished school!' :P

looks like labor has once again screwed up. OH, and Peter Garrett is minister for Education? someone kill me now....

E.

sometimes i wonder if God could ever forgive us for what we've done to each other.

but then i remember: God left this earth a long time ago. He gave up, and moved on...

the current state of australian politics makes me wish i lived overseas.

honestly, our prime minister can't even speak english properly. i mean, who pronounces 'australia' like 'Orstraaaliya'??? clearly, julia gillard does.

and my god, her hair looks herrible. And her partner is a hairdresser? that just doesn't even make sense....

people like that shouldn't be allowed to live. They're like frickin' duracell bunnies.....they spread like wildfire and never say 'die'. fuck you evolution.




E.

just got my ass handed to me in a game of monopoly.

happy fathers' day dad :)


E.

'if i could see the future and how this plays out, i bet it's better than where we are now.'

i think the reason why people find it so difficult to be happy is because they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is and the future less resolved than it will be.

 

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it's finally spring ^.^

“'Come to the edge,' he said. They said: 'We are afraid.' 'Come to the edge,' he said. They came. He pushed them and they flew.”

to be alive i have to have lived. it's like i'm suffocating beneath your stare.

 

s'il vous plaît, je vous implore, laissez-moi être moi.

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it is a friend who would give you anything.
it is a best friend who never need to, just his presence is life giving.

you can buy all the clothes you want and earn all the money you want,

but know this...if all you could afford to wear was a garbage bag, you'd still be the apple of my eye.

'a friend is someone who walks in when the rest of the world has walked out.'

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"julia gillard's hair looks herrible"
"did you just say 'herrible'?"

"yeh, i was going to say horrible, then i wanted to say terrible, but then i said both..."

just another epic blonde moment :P

E.

and that, my friends, is what friday night football is all about :)

oh, and my first impressions of oakleigh station?? hmmm well, let's just leave it at that....


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sometimes, i can be so stupid and yet, I wonder why we blondes such get a bad reputation.

so smart, yet so dumb....

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i have just become totally obssessed with top 40 music...how superficial. 

but at least i have a CD in my car that everyone wants to actually listen to now :)


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3 people shot in melbourne today, and its friday the 13th.....hmmmmmmmm.

highlight of my day (a conversation with Harry on the phone and my brother, Peter):

Harry: 'my friends mum gave her son a frying pan for his 21st'

Me: 'hahaha! hey Pete, what would you do if i gave you a frying pan for your 21st?'

Peter: 'delighted.....if i were a woman'

lolsworthy :P

 major cramming sesh for uni this weekend. so many assignments and tests! :S

E.

As i sit here listening to the rain pelting down on the roof outside, i realise just how fast my heart races when i'm with you.

but you don't see it like that, at least i don't think you do.

i wish i had x-ray vision so i could see what you feel.

at least now i won't have to waste my time 'eating a shitload of carrots' just to get it, as dr. cannata so eloquently put it. i guess the best things in life weren't meant to be easy to find.

"Life is just one giant treasure map, and 'X' NEVER marks the spot."

E.

could today get any worse?

just a new meaning to 'life can be a bitch'

moral of today's story? no matter how tough you think you are, NEVER have a cold shower and wash you hair at the same time! it hurts >.<

now it's time to psyche myself out for what tomorrow is going to bring....goodbye monday :)


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"i wanna be a billionaire so fucking bad"

this quite frankly, is an understatement.

in fact, why stop at a billion?

"hi, my name's money and i'm a gold-digging selfish bitch"

damn right you are.

E.

HD anyone?

"anything that makes my job easier for marking is better for you"

"so, a blowjob?" 

 best. reply. ever. 

 

E. 

my missing puzzle piece.

 'i finally found you, my missing puzzle piece...'

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the beginning

"yesterday is history,

tomorrow is a mystery,

today is a gift.

That is why they call it the present."

it's the story of my life so far

E.

painting my nails right now.
its times like these when i wish i was ambidextrous.


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