today was fun.

we should do this again melbourne :)

p.s. - i have only just realised what was meant by 'the clocks' :P

E.

When we truly love our pet, it is never lost. It is only after death that the depth of the bond is truly felt and our loved companion becomes more a part of us that we thought possible in life.

tu me manques ma princess.

E.

Juste quand  je commençais à tu oublier, tu étais là.

je pose la question...pourquoi ne te laissent pas mes pensées?

je veux pas te oublier, mais je ne peux pas m'aider.

E.

"you never know what you've got until you've lost it."

it's only now that i truly understand what it means.

E.

RIP Jilly

13/12/1994 - 19/11/2010

you were the best dog anyone could have ever asked for. I'll miss you <3

xxxx

E.

just got an email from Myer.

"congratulations on your new position as a christmas casual'

that's a little out of the blue! i'd given up several weeks ago.

but 2 jobs at the same time? my life just got a little more complicated :S

but i could always use the extra cash $$$

E.

i guess the saying 'the shit has hit the fan' is pretty much an understatement. i may be exaggerating, but i can't stop worrying about it.

i hit a car today trying to park (more like 'touched' a car). careless i know, but i have photos, and its pretty much just a scratch. apparently it's going to 'buff out'.

well i hope so. anything over $1000 and i have to claim it on insurance....and then my insurance premium goes up, and then my dad is going to kill me :S

why does money have to be the root of all of lifes problems?

i guess its time to start saving some serious bikkies....again.

E.

so i have over $2000 to save for a return airfare to New York in 2013.

could you make it any harder for me to see you get married? PLUS you're not even having bridesmaids! sigh.

but one thing did make my day.

"you guys can go out on the town after the reception"

party in New York bitchezzz ;)

E.

so results came through today, totally aced it ;)

but i definitely think i've set the bar too high. 

the pressure is on for the next 2 years.

E.

Why complicate a friendship with a relationship?

It finally dawned on me this morning that perhaps you feel the need to take this further. Then i realised afterwards that maybe i've been giving you the wrong impression, like i've been leading you on. Why do i always do that? If i were to be completely honest with you, you're perfect and yet it's still not enough.

Why is it now that i can't find the answer that i want?

It seems that the new image for myself that i wanted to create has turned into something that I neither like nor understand. The worst thing though is that i feel as though i can't turn back, as though a part of me actually likes the person i'm becoming. For the first time in my life, i'm lost and i don't know where to go.

I guess this is just another one of lifes hurdles that i have to jump, and i suck at hurdles.

E.

this may sound rather vain and childish, but i'm sick to death of my hair.

E.

It's days like this that make me feel happy. Where all the bullshit that goes on in my life just doesn't exist. Where money doesn't matter, jealousy doesn't exist and deep and meaningful conversations with friends are abundant. Awkwardness has no presence and fun has no boundaries.

but it's too bad though that days like this can't last forever.

E.

if there is one thing in the world that i truly detest, it would be lying.

but sometimes, it's just so worth it.

E.