sometimes i can never tell whether you're just in a bad mood, or actually pissed at me.

i hate it when you call me stupid, but you're my friend, so i play along. We laugh and make fun of each other. Some of the stuff you say really hurts. But then again, you can always dish it out and never take it. Friendship is a mutal concept. For it to work, both parties must make an equal contribution. But lately, i've found myself doing all the work, and i wonder why i put you as my priority when i'm only your option.

Since i've met you, my life has changed, my life is worth living. There's no denying that i will miss you when it's over, we're so close yet so far away. would you want me to come visit you? i would visit you every day if i could, just so i could look into those beautiful blue eyes of yours and tell myself 'you're my friend, and the world is different when i'm with you.'

i feel jealousy taking a hold of me. i see you with others and my heart sinks, because you're not with me. i'm jealous of you. I'm a selfish person, but i try so hard not to let it control me. Was it something i said or did? Understand that this is me and if you can't handle it, then it breaks my heart to have to say that it was just never meant to be.

but i want it so badly.

E.