words cannot describe the bitter disappointment i felt when i knew you wouldn't be there.
and to tell you the truth, deep down inside, somehow, i knew you wouldn't be.
but i thought that the fact that it was my birthday and that i hadn't seen you in 5 months would be enough to get you out of bed. clearly, i was wrong.

if you never hear from me again, don't blame me. it's time i started streamlining my life and honestly, i still can't decide whether or not i still want you here. There's no point in me putting you as my priority when i'm only your option.
to put it bluntly, friends don't do that shit to each other.
It's times like this that people show their true colours. true friends are there for each other. always.

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I can't thank you enough for spending the day with me. It meant so much to me having someone who was willing to go the extra mile to do so. It's been barely a year, but you mean so much to me, and it means even more to me to know that you feel the same way. I had no idea until i read that so very thoughtful card you gave me, the part of the present that i truly value the most. In other words, i love you (in a strictly platonic sense of course...)and that, you will never be able 'to quantify' (as you so eloquently put it).

just so you know, I definitely still want you here.


"true friends are like diamonds, precious and rare. false friends are like autumn leaves, found everywhere."


E.